I grew up in a religious household. It was a good childhood, no real complaints, but something never quite clicked for me with what was being taught. I sat through the programming, tolerated it through my teens, but I always had this feeling that there was something more. I used to wonder if everyone around me was just going through the motions and I was the only one actually asking real questions. Why am I here? Who am I? Those questions started showing up early and never really left.

For a while I buried them. After high school, without much direction, I joined the Air Force and ended up overseas on the battlefields of Iraq. When I came home, I was lost in a way I didn’t have words for yet. What followed were over 15 years of severe alcoholism. I couldn’t sleep without drinking. Three and four day benders became normal. Those were the darkest years of my life, and somewhere in the middle of all of it, those same questions came back. Who am I? Why am I here? Only this time the answers felt heavy and dark. In the depths of that addiction, I didn’t want to be on this planet anymore. I thought I was happy when I was drinking, but I knew even then that it wasn’t real. It wasn’t sustainable. It was slowly consuming everything.

By the grace of God, I reached out to the VA and was diagnosed with PTSD. Something about that diagnosis cracked something open. I made the decision to put down the alcohol and fight for my life back. It wasn’t clean or quick. I struggled for years. But I got there, and as I started healing, something unexpected happened.

I found God. Not the version I grew up with, not a man with a beard in the sky controlling who wins the Super Bowl and a million other things at once. What I found was deeper than that, and it was within, it had always been within. It was tangible. I found my true power. I discovered I could ask those same questions, who am I, why am I here, and actually receive answers. Loving, clear, grounding answers. What I found on the other side of all that pain was the most beautiful thing I have ever experienced: a sense of pure abundance, a complete absence of lack, a reason to be alive that actually felt true.

Everything in my life began to shift after that. Slowly at first, then faster than I could have imagined, and all of it for the better.

That’s why I do this work. I want others to experience those same shifts. To reconnect with who they actually are, to wake up to their own divine nature, and to start living from love and truth instead of fear.